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Tuesday, 22 July 2008

DEAD

OKAY I AM SO DEAD.
ORALS ON THURSDAY AND I'M GOING SECOND.

I HAVE DONE..NIL.

Am i dead, or am i dead?

I THINK I AM MORE THAN DEAD.
I THINK I'M GOING TO BE DEAD AND ROASTED LIKE A FRIED CHICKEN IN HELL.

why haven't i started any work?
and why am i still on xanga blogging about not starting any work when i could be doing work with all this time!?

I AM SO DISTRACTED.
I feel like i'm still on holidays.

Goshhh. Godhelpmepls.=)
I'M BEGGING YOUUUU.

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on another note,
is it pretty significant that when someone goes to a place where everything is different, that someone tends to forget their roots and turn into a different person?

i think it is.
i think over the past 2 years, i've changed a little bit since i came here.
i wish things were the same as last time, you know. hanging out with the people i love most.
not to say i don't like the people here. but i wish that it was just a place where i could just let go and be myself.
i've lost that space where i could. and i've lost the presence which i'm allowed to, let it all out.

for crying out loud, since coming here, i've witnessed people trying to fit it.
trying to be someone else that people would accept just to be "cool" or have friends.
would you rather be accepted for someone you're not, or not be accepted for someone you are?
would you rather stay true to who you are, or would you rather change to be someone you're not?
all for the sake of fitting in?

people are suppose to like you for who you are.
if you've changed for your own better good, i guess thats good.
but changing for someone else, thats not my thing.
i don't like seeing people change for someone else.
i find it kinda pointless. like where's the sense in that?
if that person loves you, they should like you for who you are and they shouldn't have the need to change.
love is patient love is kind. love should accept all weaknesses too.
and in the process learn to see that weakness and one's strengths instead of using it to bring someone down.

i hate to see the way that you've changed. just so you know, i don't think thats who you are.

Wednesday, 18 June 2008

TESSA PEED IN THE SHOWER!!! Like wtf its damn yellow la and pee damn slot lot and like WTF I was showering in the next shower and we share the same drainage lubang and she just had to empty her bladder then making a yellow whirlpool of pee for my eyes and nose to enjoy
I'm currently using hadi's iPod touch to blog. Damn cool la but super hard to type so ya bye

Tuesday, 17 June 2008

4.3.2.1.

i can't wait (=

//edit//
JOANNE ONG SU YIN
what lah you. you holiday now only you tell me what you going to do!
go down to sydney some other time during the term when you're free so that i can go over there and see you.
or maybe i'd just simply take a flight to nz to see my babyy <3
I MISS YOU BABY.

you make me think so much about the form2&3 days. damn don't you miss it? cos i blooody do. i feel so nostalgic everytime i think back. it was practically the best years of my life. (and according to leongz and choons it was theirs too). I miss the times when we answered back to those mofo teachers. now if i ever do that, they'll just like be rude back to me (xcept my dumbass chinese teacher. freaking monobrow) and they'd probably give me a really bad testimonial when i leave school. or send a really bad report back to my ma and pa. and stupid pn doraemon! RUZYYY YEAHHH.
mother. i shall stop being anal.
i just switched studies. now i have a bigger study. but no more honor but hello, hannah!
(=
and now all my junk can be hidden under my desk, away from the teacher's eyes. stupid tutors who always complains that my area is too damn messy.
packing 3quarters done!can'twaitcan'twaitcan'twaitcan'twaitcan'twait =D

i miss my yohchukings.

Friday, 13 June 2008

6 more days till i'm home! yay.
i can't wait (=
today was a really windy day, just like it was yesterday, and the day before, and the day before that, AND the day before that, AND ALSO the day before that. okay whatever, it has just been a windy week ok!
the wind practically blew up all our kilts, so us little bumbums who refuses to wear tights got our kilts blown up so that our bumbum and pretty cool/grandmalooking/colourful/gstring panties shows. if you were a guy you would have probably enjoyed the sight, the sight of looking at all these "hotchics" asses and panties.
what else. i had english class but i didn't bring my laptop to class, cos the power is a bitch, so me and honor went to the library, but i ended up going back to the house and slack (= had physics and eco after that, where me and jkl did stuff that you cannot do even though you tried. and i'm not telling you what otherwise i'd get into trouble. but don't worry, i'm not a mischievious girl. talking to jkl made me realize, that you actually can't trust anyone other than yourself cos sometimes people get close to you for a reason, and then they would just bitch about you behind your back. like seriously, if you want some friends, no matter how slutty/stupid/bitchy/annoying she/he is, don't talk behind their back, cos they're bound to find out somehow.
I KNOW YOUR GAME.
AND I MIGHT JUST TELL ON YOU ANYTIME.
hey i'm not being a bitch, cos i'm not even your friend. i don't even know you. but i know alot about you.
actually i've been dying to ask this question.
why do people bitch about someone, say horrid nasty stuff about that person but yet the still hang out together like best friends? cos to me if you say badstuff about someone, its implying that you simply don't like that person to start with. and don't give me that "oh i like her, but well she's ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOP." bullshit. well if you like her so much then why are you saying so much about her? if she finds out one day, you guys won't even be friends anymore. real friends has this thing called tolerance.
what i really don't get is when x, y and z are best friends, or seems like it. but x bitches about y to z, and y bitches about z to x. and z bitches about x to y. its like a freaking bitch triangle, but then all of them just hangs out like nothings wrong. like seriously wtf to the max.
i just cooked brown rice btw. (= so yummy. i put soya sauce and chilli powder and eat with tuna. so yummy. school food's so bad that even normal lame meals like this are enough to make me happy.
meeting audrey sng tomorrow! pretty excited. and then i'm staying over in plc! yayyy. time with claudididiiii!
so much work to do over the holidays, don't even know why the teachers give us so much work when its almost end of term and most teachers would be more slack. but i guess IB is different. WORK AFTER WORK AFTER WORK. don't do IB people! IT EATS UP YOUR SOCIAL LIFEE.
english - 650-750 words on a paragraph of WUTHERING HEIGHTS (has emily bronte actually read her own book to like find out how FREAKING BORING IT IS?- theres this thing called going through your work you know)
economics - 500++ words on "petrol prices hiked" analysis
chinese - report on the mandarin speaking competition bullshit. jamesmitchell<3
maths - heaps of work on circles
TOK- 1000 words on "how our view of the world has changed"
if you've done the sum, i've approximately 2000 words to write over the weekend. AND MORE. and, I'M GOING OUT. so i don't know how thats going to fit in.
diediedieeeeeeeee. IBKILLS.

Monday, 09 June 2008

AHHH MCHKNNCCB. i hate myself. :( i just typed this whole post and i press post but i realized that i didn't change my proxy address, so it came up "internet explorer cannot display the webpage".
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HELL YOUUUUUUUUUU. : (
ughh update later. xx